First, a ( photo of my new glasses )
And this one, you'll have to know a little about Jonathan Coulton to enjoy (or hate -- I'm looking at you,
metaphortunate). The song it refers to is at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z53WLtow YBo and this is my 9th anniversary present from James.
( he made it to please me! )
And this one, you'll have to know a little about Jonathan Coulton to enjoy (or hate -- I'm looking at you,
( he made it to please me! )
I Have A Dream
Jan. 16th, 2012 08:53 amEvery year, I listen to the I Have A Dream speech, and every year, I get major goosebumps. This year, it's an interesting juxtaposition with my reading/viewing of "Twilight: Los Angeles". Dr. King's dream hasn't come true yet. I hope some day, it does.
Happy MLK Day (observed). This is one of the only holidays that means anything to me. When I was in grade school, Dr. King's assassination was fresh in people's minds and hearts. I grew up in an overtly racist set of communities, with a mom who was trying to do better by us. Dr. King was one of my first heroes. Sure, he wasn't perfect, but I often think his messages were. And I am impatient for the day when the totality of his dream is real, and not just a dream and a hope. Please read this exerpt from his Letter from a Birmingham Jail, which expresses my feeling of impatience today:
Happy MLK Day (observed). This is one of the only holidays that means anything to me. When I was in grade school, Dr. King's assassination was fresh in people's minds and hearts. I grew up in an overtly racist set of communities, with a mom who was trying to do better by us. Dr. King was one of my first heroes. Sure, he wasn't perfect, but I often think his messages were. And I am impatient for the day when the totality of his dream is real, and not just a dream and a hope. Please read this exerpt from his Letter from a Birmingham Jail, which expresses my feeling of impatience today:
For years now I have heard the word "Wait!" It rings in the ear of every Negro with piercing familiarity. This "Wait" has almost always meant "Never." We must come to see, with one of our distinguished jurists, that "justice too long delayed is justice denied."
We have waited for more than 340 years for our constitutional and God given rights. The nations of Asia and Africa are moving with jetlike speed toward gaining political independence, but we still creep at horse and buggy pace toward gaining a cup of coffee at a lunch counter. Perhaps it is easy for those who have never felt the stinging darts of segregation to say, "Wait." But when you have seen vicious mobs lynch your mothers and fathers at will and drown your sisters and brothers at whim; when you have seen hate filled policemen curse, kick and even kill your black brothers and sisters; when you see the vast majority of your twenty million Negro brothers smothering in an airtight cage of poverty in the midst of an affluent society; when you suddenly find your tongue twisted and your speech stammering as you seek to explain to your six year old daughter why she can't go to the public amusement park that has just been advertised on television, and see tears welling up in her eyes when she is told that Funtown is closed to colored children, and see ominous clouds of inferiority beginning to form in her little mental sky, and see her beginning to distort her personality by developing an unconscious bitterness toward white people; when you have to concoct an answer for a five year old son who is asking: "Daddy, why do white people treat colored people so mean?"; when you take a cross county drive and find it necessary to sleep night after night in the uncomfortable corners of your automobile because no motel will accept you; when you are humiliated day in and day out by nagging signs reading "white" and "colored"; when your first name becomes "nigger," your middle name becomes "boy" (however old you are) and your last name becomes "John," and your wife and mother are never given the respected title "Mrs."; when you are harried by day and haunted by night by the fact that you are a Negro, living constantly at tiptoe stance, never quite knowing what to expect next, and are plagued with inner fears and outer resentments; when you are forever fighting a degenerating sense of "nobodiness"--then you will understand why we find it difficult to wait. There comes a time when the cup of endurance runs over, and men are no longer willing to be plunged into the abyss of despair. I hope, sirs, you can understand our legitimate and unavoidable impatience.
Winter quarter 2012
Jan. 10th, 2012 06:54 amThis is the first day of my second quarter of university, and happily, I am finally not sick. I'm a little hung over from sleeping something like twelve hours a day for a few days, but I'm mostly well, and ready to meet my first day. I'm starting it off by leaving an hour and a half early so I can go to an advising appointment before class starts: I need to make sure I'm not wasting a single unit on classes I don't need for my degree. Normally, I don't like thinking about school that way, but that's why I have nearly four years' worth of credits and only a two-year degree out of it. So I'll batten down the hatches, or some other bad metaphor, and get this BA done as quickly as I can.
Still shopping for grad schools. Getting a LOT of recommendations to do one of SF State's counseling programs. Two of my co-workers LOVED their Rehab Counseling cohort programs there, and my upstairs neighbor is really grooving on the MFT she's doing, as well. Plus, the commute is roughly the same as I'm doing now. We'll see. The idea of an online masters is appealing, but maybe if I can do something close by, that would be as good, and I do like going to school. (I don't really like the commute, I'll be honest, but it's not too terribly onerous.)
So, ten weeks of this. My schedule is as follows:
T/Th on campus:
Critical Writing on Fiction
Writing Women's Lives: A Workshop
ASL II
Online
A theater class, Women in Performance
On the waiting list for Women and Literature
Now that I'm not sick or exhausted, I'm getting a little excited about it.
Still shopping for grad schools. Getting a LOT of recommendations to do one of SF State's counseling programs. Two of my co-workers LOVED their Rehab Counseling cohort programs there, and my upstairs neighbor is really grooving on the MFT she's doing, as well. Plus, the commute is roughly the same as I'm doing now. We'll see. The idea of an online masters is appealing, but maybe if I can do something close by, that would be as good, and I do like going to school. (I don't really like the commute, I'll be honest, but it's not too terribly onerous.)
So, ten weeks of this. My schedule is as follows:
T/Th on campus:
Critical Writing on Fiction
Writing Women's Lives: A Workshop
ASL II
Online
A theater class, Women in Performance
On the waiting list for Women and Literature
Now that I'm not sick or exhausted, I'm getting a little excited about it.
Record project redux
Jan. 7th, 2012 09:53 amFor very little money, I picked up four of my missed albums the other day, and it gave me such joy to sit around at work in the nearly-empty office listening to Rumours and Hotel California. This is a very fun thing for me. And I got the remaster of Rumours with the second disc of outtakes and stuff, so that'll be cool. I'm enjoying the liner notes, as well.
Tapestry, Carole King Already had it
Diamonds and Rust, Joan Baez
Streisand/Kristofferson, A Star Is Born
Hotel California, Eagles Bought
ELO, A New World Record
Anne Murray, Let's Keep It That Way
Sade, Diamond Life & Promise
Tracy Chapman, Crossroads
PPM: Peter Paul & Mary; Peter Paul & Mommy
Queen: A Night at the Opera
Fleetwood Mac: Rumours Bought
Beatles: Sgt. Pepper
Jennifer O'Connor: Over the Mountain, Across the Valley, and Back to the Stars
Ani DiFranco: Not a Pretty Girl Bought
KT Oslin: Songs from an Aging Sex Bomb Bought
Marlo Thomas and Friends: Free to Be... You and Me
Elton John: Yellow Brick Road
The Grease Soundtrack
The Xanadu Soundtrack
Harry Belafonte live at Carnegie Hall -- may have to get this on LP, because the CD I bought of it elided some songs and most of the patter, which is just wrong.
Joan Baez, Play Me Backwards
Crowded House: Crowded House, Temple of Low Men, Woodface
Putumayo presents Women's Work
Diamonds and Rust, Joan Baez
Streisand/Kristofferson, A Star Is Born
ELO, A New World Record
Anne Murray, Let's Keep It That Way
Sade, Diamond Life & Promise
Tracy Chapman, Crossroads
PPM: Peter Paul & Mary; Peter Paul & Mommy
Queen: A Night at the Opera
Beatles: Sgt. Pepper
Jennifer O'Connor: Over the Mountain, Across the Valley, and Back to the Stars
Marlo Thomas and Friends: Free to Be... You and Me
Elton John: Yellow Brick Road
The Grease Soundtrack
The Xanadu Soundtrack
Harry Belafonte live at Carnegie Hall -- may have to get this on LP, because the CD I bought of it elided some songs and most of the patter, which is just wrong.
Joan Baez, Play Me Backwards
Crowded House: Crowded House, Temple of Low Men, Woodface
Putumayo presents Women's Work
It's a good time to mention this
Jan. 4th, 2012 09:07 pmSo finding out a couple of my favorite people are going to FOGCon this year reminded me to tell you all that not only am I going, I think you should go, too. They didn't ask or pay me to say that, but FOGCon 1 last year was my very first science fiction con, and I loved it, even though I am not much of a fan, so since most of you are much more fannish than I, I think you'll like it a lot. Plus, I'll be there, and I'll have my own room and no family-of-origin hanging around, so I'll have time to sit quietly in the consuite and knit while waiting for you to come say hi to me. Can't tell me that doesn't sound like fun, now can you? Don't answer that.
Anyway, it's in the East Bay this time (though not any nearer to me than the previous one), the hotel is reasonably priced (though they may still be renovating the lobby while we're there), and honestly, some of the smartest, most aware people I know will be there, and they enriched my life last year. I expect they'll do the same this year.
Plus, maybe this year I won't be doing the con on zero sleep after evacuating my family for a possible tidal wave.
(Which brings me to mention that Doctors Without Borders was my place of choice to send tsunami relief funds, and they can always use more help.)
Anyway, it's in the East Bay this time (though not any nearer to me than the previous one), the hotel is reasonably priced (though they may still be renovating the lobby while we're there), and honestly, some of the smartest, most aware people I know will be there, and they enriched my life last year. I expect they'll do the same this year.
Plus, maybe this year I won't be doing the con on zero sleep after evacuating my family for a possible tidal wave.
(Which brings me to mention that Doctors Without Borders was my place of choice to send tsunami relief funds, and they can always use more help.)
Ailbhe, look!
Jan. 3rd, 2012 03:49 pmShe looks a little coached, but still. Love.
http://jezebel.com/5871009/video-of-lit tle-girl-getting-pissed-off-at-gender+sp ecific-toy-colors-will-make-your-heart-s well
http://jezebel.com/5871009/video-of-lit
Being Clarity Girl
Jan. 3rd, 2012 12:52 pmEarlier, I posted "No one but me cares about all the impossible tasks I keep trying and
failing to do. No one."
By which I did not mean "I am a failure and nobody gives a shit."
What I meant was more like "It's okay to do what I want and try and fail, because I'm not letting anyone down; no one expects me to do eight million things except me, and I can even let go of that expectation and just do as I see fit."
Just wanted to make that clear.
failing to do. No one."
By which I did not mean "I am a failure and nobody gives a shit."
What I meant was more like "It's okay to do what I want and try and fail, because I'm not letting anyone down; no one expects me to do eight million things except me, and I can even let go of that expectation and just do as I see fit."
Just wanted to make that clear.
The record project
Jan. 3rd, 2012 12:47 pmI'm old enough that I still think of CDs as records; deal.
Anyway, I miss some of the records I've lost over the years (because I sold them, or actually lost them, or lent them out without getting them back, or whatever), and I'm going to try to replace as many of them as I can over time. I earmarked $100 from my prize money for this project, and I'm also giving myself a $100 reward for completing my first 5K, which I did on Saturday, so I've got $200 to spend on music! First, I'm going to set up the computer to make sure that all my music is on my external drive, so that I can easily see what I've got and what I haven't. Then I'm going to add to this list and make it as complete as I can. You may laugh at some of the stuff I wish I still had, but that's okay. It's part of the nature of nostalgia that some of this stuff is kind of funny.
Tapestry, Carole King
Diamonds and Rust, Joan Baez
Streisand/Kristofferson, A Star Is Born
Hotel California, Eagles
ELO, A New World Record
Anne Murray, Let's Keep It That Way
Sade, Diamond Life & Promise
Tracy Chapman, Crossroads
PPM: Peter Paul & Mary; Peter Paul & Mommy
Queen: A Night at the Opera
Fleetwood Mac: Rumours
Beatles: Sgt. Pepper
Jennifer O'Connor: Over the Mountain, Across the Valley, and Back to the Stars
Anyway, I miss some of the records I've lost over the years (because I sold them, or actually lost them, or lent them out without getting them back, or whatever), and I'm going to try to replace as many of them as I can over time. I earmarked $100 from my prize money for this project, and I'm also giving myself a $100 reward for completing my first 5K, which I did on Saturday, so I've got $200 to spend on music! First, I'm going to set up the computer to make sure that all my music is on my external drive, so that I can easily see what I've got and what I haven't. Then I'm going to add to this list and make it as complete as I can. You may laugh at some of the stuff I wish I still had, but that's okay. It's part of the nature of nostalgia that some of this stuff is kind of funny.
Tapestry, Carole King
Diamonds and Rust, Joan Baez
Streisand/Kristofferson, A Star Is Born
Hotel California, Eagles
ELO, A New World Record
Anne Murray, Let's Keep It That Way
Sade, Diamond Life & Promise
Tracy Chapman, Crossroads
PPM: Peter Paul & Mary; Peter Paul & Mommy
Queen: A Night at the Opera
Fleetwood Mac: Rumours
Beatles: Sgt. Pepper
Jennifer O'Connor: Over the Mountain, Across the Valley, and Back to the Stars
2011 end-of-year survey
Jan. 2nd, 2012 11:20 pmAs usual, I stole some of her answers.
1. Was 2011 a good year for you?
It was good enough for me, but very very very hard.
( There's a TON more behind the cut )
Serene: oh, god, I did something terrible today. I mean really horrible.
encountered a co-worker, and no shit, here is what I said:
"have you lost a bunch of weight?"
James: hee!
Serene: could have committed ritual suicide right there
(she said yes, thanks! and we moved on)
James: only you would be having an existential crisis over that
Serene: maybe. still. :-)
James: I'll consider intervening when you tell someone they'd look beutiful if they just lost a few pounds :)
Serene: Hee! Fair enough.
encountered a co-worker, and no shit, here is what I said:
"have you lost a bunch of weight?"
James: hee!
Serene: could have committed ritual suicide right there
(she said yes, thanks! and we moved on)
James: only you would be having an existential crisis over that
Serene: maybe. still. :-)
James: I'll consider intervening when you tell someone they'd look beutiful if they just lost a few pounds :)
Serene: Hee! Fair enough.
(no subject)
Dec. 24th, 2011 12:05 pmMy dad and the Non-Wicked Stepmother (also known as Mary) arrived late last night, and we sat around and schmoozed for a bit before they went off to the B&B we are putting them up at. Mary says it's the nicest room they've ever stayed in, so that's nice. They'll be coming over between now and 1:30, when
loracs is coming to get us and take us to her (and
stonebender's) place for the holiday dinner. Our friend Danny is joining us, as well. He's mid-Channukah, but his family's in southern California and he's not traveling this week, so we invited him to join us.
The menu shook out like so:
Standing rib roast
Crash hot potatoes
Baby pumpkins (kabocha, sugar pie, red kabocha, and something I can't identify) stuffed with brown and wild rice and mushrooms
Long-stemmed artichokes
Cooked carrots and corn
Salads (vegetable and fruit)
I'm not sure how the fruit salad will go. I think the kiwis got overripe between Thursday and today, and I forgot to get fresh berries, so I'm using frozen. Hm. Maybe I should make smoothies instead? I dunno. We'll see how it goes. Not like dessert is mandatory, and my parents don't eat sugar anyway. Oh, well.
James is playing holiday music; all the presents are wrapped; all my kitchen work is done until I start cooking in a couple hours; very low-stress holiday!
The menu shook out like so:
Standing rib roast
Crash hot potatoes
Baby pumpkins (kabocha, sugar pie, red kabocha, and something I can't identify) stuffed with brown and wild rice and mushrooms
Long-stemmed artichokes
Cooked carrots and corn
Salads (vegetable and fruit)
I'm not sure how the fruit salad will go. I think the kiwis got overripe between Thursday and today, and I forgot to get fresh berries, so I'm using frozen. Hm. Maybe I should make smoothies instead? I dunno. We'll see how it goes. Not like dessert is mandatory, and my parents don't eat sugar anyway. Oh, well.
James is playing holiday music; all the presents are wrapped; all my kitchen work is done until I start cooking in a couple hours; very low-stress holiday!
I've been walking more and more, with the goal of walking a 5K. Not a race or anything, just 5K at a time. But my 5-week (so-called) 5K training program has stalled at week 3, and I needed some incentive, so I registered for a 5K fun run/walk in San Francisco in February. I'm a slow walker, so if I finish this in an hour or less, I'll be happy.
Anyone want to join me? I promise not to mind if you leave me in the dust. :-)
Anyone want to join me? I promise not to mind if you leave me in the dust. :-)
Here we go
Dec. 18th, 2011 08:48 pmGood, if unproductive weekend. Came home from work on Friday in a foul temper (I assume from relief at the end of both my own school quarter and our students' semester, which was especially hard for me this time around because I was finding people scribes for their finals. I think I just had a mini-meltdown from its being finally over), and it took me until yesterday morning to feel vaguely like myself again.
This week, I have to work Monday/Wednesday/Friday, but my boss is not here and my file clerk is, so I think I'll be able to get lots of work done. I hope so! It would be awesome to be able to greet my boss next month with the files in order; they've gotten so bad with all the work turmoil.
Got to go to Costco with
wild_irises yesterday, which was fun, and have spent some time cooking and cleaning and exercising, but lots more time staring into space and playing computer games than usual. Which, of course, is okay. If my dad gets here on Saturday morning and my house is a wreck, hell, he lived with me for 14 years; it will not be news to him.
We are liking the Bowflex. It's easy to use and was fairly easy to put together. It takes up a HUGE amount of space, so it's good that we have a big living room and no sofa.
sogwife has to have surgery this week (I don't feel okay talking about the details; that's her story, but my story is...) and I'm worried for her, but also glad she's able to have it done. I wish I had the wherewithal to go up and hold her hand and stuff, but honestly, I'm standing
righthere
and the end of my rope is
rightoverther e
My dad and stepmom will only be here for one day, the 24th -- they leave the morning of the 25th -- and then when they're gone, I have one week off from EVERYTHING: school, work, and obligations. I will be broke, but that's okay. I will be in my house, with my family, recovering. I can hold out for one week until that happens. Pretty sure. Probably.
The kid's grades come out on January 3rd, according to her school's website. I'm actually kind of glad I don't have to deal with that conversation until after Christmas and her birthday. I'm not feeling anxious about it, but I still don't think it'll be easy. Unless somehow I'm completely wrong and she didn't actually drop out of school without telling me. Again. I mean, there are people who manage to get good grades without going to class, right?
This week, I have to work Monday/Wednesday/Friday, but my boss is not here and my file clerk is, so I think I'll be able to get lots of work done. I hope so! It would be awesome to be able to greet my boss next month with the files in order; they've gotten so bad with all the work turmoil.
Got to go to Costco with
We are liking the Bowflex. It's easy to use and was fairly easy to put together. It takes up a HUGE amount of space, so it's good that we have a big living room and no sofa.
righthere
and the end of my rope is
rightoverther
My dad and stepmom will only be here for one day, the 24th -- they leave the morning of the 25th -- and then when they're gone, I have one week off from EVERYTHING: school, work, and obligations. I will be broke, but that's okay. I will be in my house, with my family, recovering. I can hold out for one week until that happens. Pretty sure. Probably.
The kid's grades come out on January 3rd, according to her school's website. I'm actually kind of glad I don't have to deal with that conversation until after Christmas and her birthday. I'm not feeling anxious about it, but I still don't think it'll be easy. Unless somehow I'm completely wrong and she didn't actually drop out of school without telling me. Again. I mean, there are people who manage to get good grades without going to class, right?
Toot, toot (that' s my own horn)
Dec. 16th, 2011 06:51 pmDear Sandra,
Our records indicate that you have achieved a grade point average of 3.8 or greater for the Fall 2011 term (in 12 or more graded units) which places you on the Dean’s List. Congratulations for your accomplishment and I am pleased we are able to recognize you for your academic efforts this term. A Dean’s List notation has been placed on your academic transcript for the term.
Again, congratulations and keep up the good work.
Sincerely,
James L.J. Houpis
Provost and Vice President, Academic Affairs
California State University, East Bay
Our records indicate that you have achieved a grade point average of 3.8 or greater for the Fall 2011 term (in 12 or more graded units) which places you on the Dean’s List. Congratulations for your accomplishment and I am pleased we are able to recognize you for your academic efforts this term. A Dean’s List notation has been placed on your academic transcript for the term.
Again, congratulations and keep up the good work.
Sincerely,
James L.J. Houpis
Provost and Vice President, Academic Affairs
California State University, East Bay
A year in first lines
Dec. 15th, 2011 01:33 pmGanked from
hobbitbabe. I'm amused that her February one references my February one.
First content-containing line of journal entry in each month of 2011:
I don't care that much about the whole turning-of-the-year thing, but I like surveys, so here goes:
I was feeling veggie-poor, as a result of days of being in too much pain to deal with much food-wise (shopping, cooking, etc.).
At
stonebender's, just hanging out and doing brainless stuff.
It's a little before 7am.
Lots and lots of work to do today, which of course is the way I like it.
My journal is being spam-bombed.
Yesterday, the kid was having some of the symptoms she gets when she gets her infrequent kidney infections, so after she put it off for a while, insisting it was probably just a backache, the pain got bad enough that she asked me to take her to the doctor.
I spent June and July in a pretty high state of crisis management; first, hospice care for Betty and then her death; next, my kid's hospitalization and surgery.
Today, I'm going to get a neck ultrasound.
I'm soooooooooooooooooooo tired.
So hard to get the energy up for anything these days besides doing the bare minimum.
This ramble will be less verbose than usual, and mostly unedited, because I'm sitting with my feet up, using James's iPad, so typing's a pain in the ass.
First content-containing line of journal entry in each month of 2011:
I don't care that much about the whole turning-of-the-year thing, but I like surveys, so here goes:
I was feeling veggie-poor, as a result of days of being in too much pain to deal with much food-wise (shopping, cooking, etc.).
At
It's a little before 7am.
Lots and lots of work to do today, which of course is the way I like it.
My journal is being spam-bombed.
Yesterday, the kid was having some of the symptoms she gets when she gets her infrequent kidney infections, so after she put it off for a while, insisting it was probably just a backache, the pain got bad enough that she asked me to take her to the doctor.
I spent June and July in a pretty high state of crisis management; first, hospice care for Betty and then her death; next, my kid's hospitalization and surgery.
Today, I'm going to get a neck ultrasound.
I'm soooooooooooooooooooo tired.
So hard to get the energy up for anything these days besides doing the bare minimum.
This ramble will be less verbose than usual, and mostly unedited, because I'm sitting with my feet up, using James's iPad, so typing's a pain in the ass.
