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serene ([personal profile] serene) wrote2007-10-14 12:39 pm
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I can has boyfriendz?

A few weeks ago, I started corresponding with Secret Agent Man, WINOLJ, and we've met once since then. I wasn't exactly looking for a new boyfriend (cf. "not not-looking"), but I appear to have gotten one. I'm not in love, but I'm definitely in crush. He's really smart, which of course appeals to me; he understands my social anxiety stuff; he is willing to be really patient and persistent around communication issues; and he's just goofy enough to get along with me. I like him a lot, and I even like the gentle teasing I'm getting from [livejournal.com profile] someotherguy and [livejournal.com profile] stonebender.

I know a lot of people don't like NRE (or don't even experience it), but I *love* it. My existing partners don't look less shiny -- they look *more* shiny. The whole world looks a little shinier when this particular mix of newness and Disney Chemicals(tm) kicks in. I always wished cute-poet-chick could have understood this (she wasn't doing anything wrong; she just didn't get it). I didn't feel LESS loving toward her when I was having NRE for someone else; I felt *more* loving. These days, my partners just look like the best and yummiest things on the planet, and I miss them every second I'm not with them. Not *much* different from every day, but it's got a sharper edge when I'm feeling like this.

I won't end up seeing much of Secret Agent Man in person, I'm guessing -- he is moderately far away -- but I'm looking forward to developing our friendship and just existing in the moment as the moments come.

[identity profile] cerulean-me.livejournal.com 2007-10-14 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I get way with NRE, and I LOVELOVELOVE it!!

I'm glad to know I'm not a freak in those "The whole world is shiny" feelings.

[identity profile] maya-goddess.livejournal.com 2007-10-15 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
I _so_ understand this. Totally.

[identity profile] pure-agnostic.livejournal.com 2007-10-15 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
I know a lot of people don't like NRE (or don't even experience it), but I *love* it. My existing partners don't look less shiny -- they look *more* shiny.

Yep, aint that the truth! Certainly my experience.

[identity profile] pyrzqxgl.livejournal.com 2007-10-15 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, crushes have brought me great happiness.

I was remembering that the Francesca Lia Block books had a boyfriend character called "My Secret Agent Man", but actually (OK, it's been quite a while since I read them) it was "My Secret Agent Lover Man", so, well, that's a bit different!

[identity profile] serenejournal.livejournal.com 2007-10-15 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
*grin* I loved those books. I may end up calling Secret Agent Man "SAM" and that reminds me of the movie "Running on Empty", where the family on the run calls each other "Sam" so they won't accidentally use their real names and get caught.

[identity profile] mactavish.livejournal.com 2007-10-15 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"My existing partners don't look less shiny -- they look *more* shiny. " - I am thoroughly in that mode now.

[identity profile] hitchhiker.livejournal.com 2007-10-16 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I love the line from Les Mis, "When the world was a song and the song was exciting"