I can has boyfriendz?

[serene]

A few weeks ago, I started corresponding with Secret Agent Man, WINOLJ, and we've met once since then. I wasn't exactly looking for a new boyfriend (cf. "not not-looking"), but I appear to have gotten one. I'm not in love, but I'm definitely in crush. He's really smart, which of course appeals to me; he understands my social anxiety stuff; he is willing to be really patient and persistent around communication issues; and he's just goofy enough to get along with me. I like him a lot, and I even like the gentle teasing I'm getting from someotherguy and stonebender.

I know a lot of people don't like NRE (or don't even experience it), but I *love* it. My existing partners don't look less shiny -- they look *more* shiny. The whole world looks a little shinier when this particular mix of newness and Disney Chemicals(tm) kicks in. I always wished cute-poet-chick could have understood this (she wasn't doing anything wrong; she just didn't get it). I didn't feel LESS loving toward her when I was having NRE for someone else; I felt *more* loving. These days, my partners just look like the best and yummiest things on the planet, and I miss them every second I'm not with them. Not *much* different from every day, but it's got a sharper edge when I'm feeling like this.

I won't end up seeing much of Secret Agent Man in person, I'm guessing -- he is moderately far away -- but I'm looking forward to developing our friendship and just existing in the moment as the moments come.

Comments

[cerulean-me.livejournal.com]

I get way with NRE, and I LOVELOVELOVE it!!

I'm glad to know I'm not a freak in those "The whole world is shiny" feelings.