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serene1) It was very fun making a watermelon basket full of fruit salad for a party yesterday, and the birthday girl's reaction was the best part.
2) I learned some things about myself yesterday that I think I knew already, but hadn't quite articulated. For one thing, I never ever expect people to be mean to me, and when they are, it throws me off, and suddenly someone whose opinion doesn't really matter to me on a regular day becomes able to really hurt me. I got over it quickly, but it threw me off for a while. The parallels to the years I spent with my first wife feeling emotionally off-kilter are stunning. The thing that helped me most was to remind myself of where the person lies in my emotional constellation. Once I could get a grip on that, things were better. I don't suppose that would have helped with my first wife, but she was the sun and moon to me, so while the feeling is similar, I couldn't have brushed her meanness off as not mattering. And no, I don't feel like talking about the details. The incident was very minor, and what counts is what I learned from it.
3) I am back to being horrifically behind on the magazine stuff (both email and layout) and will probably declare next weekend (a three-day weekend) as Leave Me Alone I'm Working weekend. I want to visit with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
stonebender and tend my poor achy head today, so I'm giving myself a sick day today.
2) I learned some things about myself yesterday that I think I knew already, but hadn't quite articulated. For one thing, I never ever expect people to be mean to me, and when they are, it throws me off, and suddenly someone whose opinion doesn't really matter to me on a regular day becomes able to really hurt me. I got over it quickly, but it threw me off for a while. The parallels to the years I spent with my first wife feeling emotionally off-kilter are stunning. The thing that helped me most was to remind myself of where the person lies in my emotional constellation. Once I could get a grip on that, things were better. I don't suppose that would have helped with my first wife, but she was the sun and moon to me, so while the feeling is similar, I couldn't have brushed her meanness off as not mattering. And no, I don't feel like talking about the details. The incident was very minor, and what counts is what I learned from it.
3) I am back to being horrifically behind on the magazine stuff (both email and layout) and will probably declare next weekend (a three-day weekend) as Leave Me Alone I'm Working weekend. I want to visit with
stonebender and tend my poor achy head today, so I'm giving myself a sick day today.![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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Date: 2009-05-03 07:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-04 01:13 am (UTC)I am sorry someone chose to be mean to you, I can't understand why they'd do that - you are a neat person and certainly don't deserve meanness. Yuck!