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Jun. 28th, 2005 03:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serene3:30 in the morning. A lovely time for quiet contemplation (or self-involved obsessing, whichever works for you), and for listening to loved ones' breathing.
Breathing. Yeah, that's how I am right now. I'm breathing. I am neither happy nor unhappy. I am just here. I am okay with that.
Work is okay. I don't love it, my feet don't love it, but it's okay and it has perks that I like, including a very flexible boss who is going to give me the schedule I want so that I am available for the UC Berkeley thing full-time.
I don't see much of my family these days because of the working-two-jobs thing, but that should change after the 4th.
I have some issues around feeling obligated to find time for people. I need to let those issues go. My family members know I love them. If I choose to be at work (or wherever) instead of with them, they are grownups and can fend for themselves, especially if it's a temporary situation. If someone expresses simple regret that we're not spending more time together, I don't need to turn that into guilt over doing what I need to do to pay my bills.
Had a lovely day off on Friday. Planning on another lovely day off today. If UC Berkeley calls me, I will exchange that lovely day off for a lovely day at the excellent job.
Now to see if my feet (and hips) will let me go back to sleep. Have a wonderful day!
Breathing. Yeah, that's how I am right now. I'm breathing. I am neither happy nor unhappy. I am just here. I am okay with that.
Work is okay. I don't love it, my feet don't love it, but it's okay and it has perks that I like, including a very flexible boss who is going to give me the schedule I want so that I am available for the UC Berkeley thing full-time.
I don't see much of my family these days because of the working-two-jobs thing, but that should change after the 4th.
I have some issues around feeling obligated to find time for people. I need to let those issues go. My family members know I love them. If I choose to be at work (or wherever) instead of with them, they are grownups and can fend for themselves, especially if it's a temporary situation. If someone expresses simple regret that we're not spending more time together, I don't need to turn that into guilt over doing what I need to do to pay my bills.
Had a lovely day off on Friday. Planning on another lovely day off today. If UC Berkeley calls me, I will exchange that lovely day off for a lovely day at the excellent job.
Now to see if my feet (and hips) will let me go back to sleep. Have a wonderful day!