Resilience

[serene]

Resilience

I see talk all the time of how
being resilient
being able to take a punch
and go on

how finding your way
back to joy
from a dark, cold place

is the key to long life
and happiness

I have blessed my resilience
been smug and vocal
about how hard it is to make me
despair
give up
become withered and cold and hard

but resilience is not always a blessing

sometimes, it means
that real sorrow
blindsides

sometimes, it means
not knowing how to feel, or what to do
when a jackboot fills the viewing screen
and danger beads the air
like condensation from liquid evil

being geared to joy
makes sorrow harder to process

being used to being happy
means that when you are in a situation
you can't change
and can't abide
you may just struggle to have the will

to take a shower
to leave the house
to go to work
to be civil
to be
to be
to be

Comments

[alatefeline]

<3 This was both beautiful and clear. I understand and believe that this makes things so hard to process.

[serene]

Thanks so much.

[ljgeoff]

like condensation from liquid evil

Wow, that's a striking image. I love the thoughts in this.

[hitchhiker]

beautiful and true