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My favorite jewelry artist (who is also my partner) is selling a couple of her pieces of art. If it's the kind of thing you would be interested in, you should go take a look!

rambly stuff

Several thought trains collided in my head today;

1) I've been reading dbubley's recent posts about being a fat
dyke and what that has meant in her life and her body

2) sogwife is selling some of her jewelry, which made me think
to wear the necklace she made me, which made me think to dress up today,
which made me feel pretty

3) I'm reading a
book that has some passing commentary about gay bear culture and how
getting fat is letting oneself go and get unattractive

So I was walking across Sproul Plaza this morning, feeling pretty, when it
suddenly dawned on me that to a lot of people who see me every day, the
fact that I'm fat means I'm *automatically* not pretty. I actually
stopped in my tracks for a second.

Then I laughed and kept walking.

I felt pure joy for a minute, because I think my "ugliness" is kind of
funny, probably because I think it's imaginary, artificial, Man-made (as
in The Man), and So. Not. About. Me.

Life is good.

Joy!

And speaking of joy, my mom's coming to town tomorrow! Yayyyyyyyyy!

wow

A student at The Best Temp Job Ever needs an attendant for a couple of
weeks (16 days, actually). Just an hour or two in the morning to help him
get showered and dressed and stuff.

In Japan.

All expenses paid. Medium-sized stipend.

I have until Monday to let him know. If I say yes, then Wednesday, I'm
going to go get an expedited passport (provided I really do know where my
birth certificate is, and I think I do). And then August 1-17th, I'll be
in Japan!

I will miss the hell out of my family, but I've always wanted to see
Japan, and I don't know when I'd ever be able to do so on my own. Working
there for a couple of weeks seems like a great way to get the chance.

I am not a huge fan of flying, but hey, it's
Japan!

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What am I, *stupid*? Of *course* I'm going to Japan. Right?

(I will miss the familiarity of my life. I will miss my loves. But I know
myself -- I would regret it forever if I said no. I'm going. Or so say I
in this moment.)