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Tomorrow (well, really, today, since I'm still up at 2:30am): Get EKG; start beta blockers

Soon: Get echocardiogram; get holter monitor; increase thyroid meds

Tonight: Find it impossible to sleep because my heart wants to beat to its own funky rhythm, scary as hell

(The heart stuff is all to make it possible to increase the thyroid meds, which suppress the risk of cancer recurrence while simultaneously making my heart do all kinds of weird shit.)

I fucking hate this.

[Edited to add: I really do know that staying awake isn't safer than falling asleep. Try to convince my hindbrain of that.]

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My kid has started doing art commissions for people online. This one is one she doesn't like at all, but I thought it was cool that people are paying her to make their avatars. (I laughed at her "Artist Comment" for this one:

ugh, i hate this pose, i hate his legs, i hate his boots, i hate his face, i hate your mum


TEEEENAAAAAGEEEEEEEEEE ANGSSSSTTTTTTTTTT

/regret/

ink lines for gaia commission by ~TotemlyCool on deviantART