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Aug. 16th, 2011 03:27 pmI'm getting more done since I deleted my Facebook and G+ accounts (and am not accepting non-work friends on my work Facebook account). Go figure.
Still not getting *much* done, though, because it hurts to do almost anything. Fortunately, I'm *able* to do whatever I want, mostly -- walk, work, type, cook -- but it's unpleasant and tiring and painful, so I've been trying to arrange my days with lots of lounging in them.
I think it's a huge boon to me that I've had people with disabilities in my life for so long, because almost all the time, I think I'm doing the right thing by resting and not working, because it makes no sense to exacerbate my illness by overdoing things, and I'm going to work and stuff, so I'm not actually slacking. Much.
Once in a while, I feel guilty or ashamed for not doing more, but mostly, I am kind to myself about it, and proud of myself for doing what's best for me, and for acting like the people around me can take care of themselves.
Which is not to say I'm not sick and fucking tired of being in pain and having limitations on what I can do without being in pain, because I am, but I'm not *mad* at myself, so that's a goodness.
Still not getting *much* done, though, because it hurts to do almost anything. Fortunately, I'm *able* to do whatever I want, mostly -- walk, work, type, cook -- but it's unpleasant and tiring and painful, so I've been trying to arrange my days with lots of lounging in them.
I think it's a huge boon to me that I've had people with disabilities in my life for so long, because almost all the time, I think I'm doing the right thing by resting and not working, because it makes no sense to exacerbate my illness by overdoing things, and I'm going to work and stuff, so I'm not actually slacking. Much.
Once in a while, I feel guilty or ashamed for not doing more, but mostly, I am kind to myself about it, and proud of myself for doing what's best for me, and for acting like the people around me can take care of themselves.
Which is not to say I'm not sick and fucking tired of being in pain and having limitations on what I can do without being in pain, because I am, but I'm not *mad* at myself, so that's a goodness.