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[serene]

Tomorrow would have been -- no, *is*, I guess -- our fourth anniversary. Sometimes I miss her so much I want to just throw myself in front of her and beg her to take me back.

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[janetmiles.livejournal.com]

Sympathy and moral support offered, if you wish.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you; I appreciate it.

[kightp.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Will you get to see her? Or at least call her? You're right, it is still your fourth anniversary. I hope you can find a way to celebrate it.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I hope to see her. I blew her off a couple of weeks ago, so she's reluctant to make plans with me, so I'll call tomorrow and see if she's free. Thanks for the hugs.

[lcohen]

*hughughug*

i don't keep the anniversaries of past relationships--otherwise i'd be coming up on the 24th anniversary with michele and that makes no sense to me, you know? but you can find ways to honor the relationship that you have now.

and yes, i do understand that flinging and begging impulse. *morehugs*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

*weepy* *small voice* I guess I'm not ready to call this a past relationship. y'know?

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

oh, honey.

***hug***

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I thought I was done spending workdays crying about this. Fuck. *hugsback*

[intenselaura.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie...HUG HUG HUG. I know the feeling -- it almost happened to me today, too. *sigh* Hang in there, love, it'll get better eventually. *more hugs*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweet thing. I know it's normal to do this one step forward, one step back thing, but it really does suck.

[intenselaura.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it sucks big time; all of that does. I'm so sorry you're going through this -- both of you. *helpless gesture*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I know I won't always feel this mopey about it. I think being so tired is part of it. Hey, I thought you were working now.

[intenselaura.livejournal.com]

Six-hour shift today. Was not fun. Did stuff I'm not used to, felt ignorant and inefficient on top of being tired, which certainly didn't help my mood. I think that when I let myself relax, I may just fall apart for a while.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I truly believe that falling apart for a while can be a really useful coping mechanism. *hugs and love and backrubs if you want 'em*

[intenselaura.livejournal.com]

Yep, I want 'em. Thank you. I think I'll go take a bath; that should help. Then, if I have energy, fresh air, sunshine and walking.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. *hugs*

[lcohen]

babydoll, you do and think whatever you need to keep you going, okay?

*hugsandlove*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Was listening to Rickie Lee Jones on my way home last night, and just mentally listing all the cool things about her (cute-poet-chick, not Rickie Lee), and it simultaneously made me feel bereft and like I'd made a really good choice in being with her.

[red-frog.livejournal.com]

No harm in at least recognizing it yourself when the ending is so recent. I noted our meeting anniversary in February and I'm sure I'll note our wedding anniversary in August. That I'm noting the anniversary of a relationship that no longer exists is irrelevant.

Take care. New relationships or not, this has got to be painful.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you. This helped. Wish I could come over and buy you coffee or something. You've been on my mind a lot lately.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

-hug-

See you soon. I think tomorrow's a go, but I have to see how much work I get done today.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Okey-dokey. My schedule is pretty open this week. Wednesday and Thursday are just as good for me, if they're good for you.

[mittelbar.livejournal.com]

o, o, o, o. Poor.

I sent anniversary notes to the Good Ex for at least a couple of years after.

*snif*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

*nodsnif*

[pyrzqxgl.livejournal.com]

Sounds very bittersweet -- I hope you can spend some good time together tomorrow, whether it turns out to be in person or just on the phone.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you; I hope so, too. It was SO good to see you on Saturday.

[saoba.livejournal.com]

Oh dear. Sending vibes and Good Thinks your way.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thanks a million, truly.

[wandra.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[emperor]

*sympathy* I know what you feel like, and I've never been in a relationship for as long as that!

I hope you and CPC manage to do something to mark the day, though I guess it'll always be a bit bittersweet.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I just hope bringing it up to her isn't a terrible idea. I want to honor her, not hurt her.

anniversary

[pir-anha.livejournal.com]

you could tell her this: was mentally listing all the cool things about her [...], and it simultaneously made me feel bereft and like I'd made a really good choice in being with her.

good wishes to you both.

Re: anniversary

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you. That's a good idea.

(Was gushing about you a bit with someotherguy last night. I think it's possible that I gave the impression that it wasn't exactly Al Gore who invented the internet. ;-)

[micheinnz.livejournal.com]

Aw, man. *big hugs* Hope you feel better soon.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon. *hugsback* I'm sure things will look better after I've had more than 4 hours' sleep.