Anxiety

[serene]

One of the weird things about the cancer journey for me is the anxiety -- not anxiety about cancer or dying, but anxiety caused by the fluctuations in hormones as we figure out the right thyroid doses for me, adjust Vitamin D, etc. (I didn't know Vitamin D was a hormone, not a vitamin, until recently).

And the weirdest thing, or perhaps the hardest to deal with, is that I'm never sure if I'm anxious because I'm anxious, or if I'm anxious because of the drugs. I don't tend, generally, to be a super-anxious person, or didn't before all this, but I'm sitting here now practically hyperventilating with stress. Is it because I have so much to do this weekend, or because the drugs are being wacky? I have no way of knowing. (Cancelling all my plans isn't a really good diagnostic tool, because cancelling them would reasonably create other anxieties.)

So I'll cope, and be easy on myself, and see how it goes.



This weekend's stuff:

1) Get the fucking magazine to the fucking printer (yes, I love the magazine, but I'm lagging so badly this week that I still haven't gotten it turned in)
2) Move the bed out of the kid's room
3) Clean the floors, walls, and cabinet in the kid's room
4) Finish painting the kid's room
5) Patch the wall in the kid's room

6) Go shopping for a few household things
7) Visit stonebender tomorrow

Things I was going to do this weekend but am cancelling:

8) rfc Cookalong
9) Clean off my writing desk

Thing I'm totally stressed about doing, but may do anyway to avoid disappointing my mother:

10) Shop for a free chair. (Long story.)

Comments

[firecat]

I'm never sure if I'm anxious because I'm anxious, or if I'm anxious because of the drugs.

Welcome to my world. Now go home.

(Glad you're feeling better.)

[purpletigron]

Good luck with the stress management. I'm having good results with yoga (the Yoga in Daily Life form)?

Vitamin D is both a hormone (function in the body) and a vitamin (production outside the body). This may also be the case with e.g. vitamin A.