News from Cal

[serene]

A few things I've been wanting to post about today:

Went to see jwermont play at the cafe, and it was a mixed bag. LOVED seeing my
friend create music. I'm not much for empty flattery, so when I say that
I really really enjoyed her percussion work, you know I really mean it.
One of the guitarists was also very good. What I did not like, and what
really cut into my enjoyment of the concert, was the other bandmembers'
passive-aggressive responses to the management's repeated requests for the
volume to be turned down. I was sitting up front and could hear their
discussions, and I just wanted to thump the lot of them.

I am not getting a
lot of time with my loved ones, but the time I've been getting has been
really good. Had a nice date with stonebender on Tuesday,
complete with trampy clothes. Had a wonderful day at home yesterday,
hanging out and puttering while someotherguy worked, doing
laundry with him (we like that kind of stuff), and cooking soup. Then
last night, the concert with sogwife, which was really fun
because we passed notes and giggled a lot of the time.

[Edit: In re-reading this, I realized I skipped the stuff that was really on my mind. There's a situation in my family that's causing a lot of stress, and I don't know how to make it better. I really think I'm doing what I need to do, but I want to wave my magic wand and make it better. I can't, and that sucks, and it's contributing to my near-constant low-lying anxiety these days. I think someotherguy could feel it yesterday, but I wasn't consciously aware of it until this morning.]

I don't love my Ikea job, but I'm not minding it
as much. Starting this week, I've gotten the reduction in hours I asked
for, and I'm hoping that I will either get more hours at UC Berkeley
(where I am at the moment, and which I love), or another temp job that I
will like.

Today will be a rough one. 8-12 at UCB, then 2-10:30 at Ikea. And then
Ikea all weekend, including the 4th. I expect to be one toasted
individual by Tuesday. Oy.

I feel a little disconnected
from my life. Yesterday helped a lot, because I got to sort of ground
myself in my home and my family, but I don't feel really present in my
life at the moment, and I don't love that feeling. As I contemplate it, I
realize that a big part of it is I'm doing a job I don't like. I guess I
know what I have to do about that, but it makes me whiny. *sigh*

Okay, back to work. Gotta research fax machines for the UCB office. Have
a lovely day!

Comments

[kightp.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things are stressful, and I hope you find your way back to center and balance.

(But what I really wanted to say was: "Oooooh, trampy clothes!")

[marci-ny.livejournal.com]

((((BIG HUGS)))) I hope these help!!!!!

~Marci

[firecat]

jwermont is a great percussionist, isn't she? (And yes, I'm biased 'cos she's my sweetie, but I also know a good musician when I hear one.)

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

WTF is up with musicians playing so loud, really? I have never understood that.

I'm sorry you're having stress & disconnect. :/ Overwork contributes to that, of course. I hope you get some time off soon.