Ganked from Gramina

[serene]

I am having some rare downtime. I am filling it with a survey of things about me whose straight answers would be news to no one, but I've decided to try to tell something that most people wouldn't know in each answer. Alert the blogosphere -- someone's being self-referential!!

Interesting to me is the fact that in choosing something you probably won't have already heard about me, I chose a bunch of melancholy stuff. I guess that's pretty understandable; I try to keep the moaning to a minimum in my entries, as a general rule.



# first name

When I was in my mother's womb, she named me. Richard. There was, for a long time, a blanket my younger brother had that was originally made for me. It said "Ricky" on it. My mother was SO sure I was going to be a boy.


# age

I remember the day I realized I was no longer the youngest in my group of peers. It was a very weird feeling. (I was around 18.)

# location

I don't actually care where I live. I love my home in Oakland, but I loved my home in San Diego, too. Part of the reason I care that I'm here is that the people in my life care.

# occupation

My philosophical and political objections aside, my dream job, if I didn't have to work at a paying job, really would be to stay home and keep house and be hospitable to visitors. That said, my current goal, jobwise, is to eventually be making enough money so that someotherguy can quit his paying job and write his book.

# partner?

Cute-poet-chick believed I was leaving her for a man. I wasn't, but it still nags at me that, essentially, I did leave her for a man, and so I never correct people when they imply that that's what happened.

# kids

I knew all through my adolescence that I was going to have a daughter some day, and her name was going to be Faith Elizabeth.

# brothers/sisters

When my brother met his wife (they've been married since 1992), I was so jealous. She took my closest friend away, and she didn't even have the good grace to be someone I could hate.

# pets

I want a kitten. Badly.

# list the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life

Not sure I can make this one news to anyone, because I'm so heart-on-sleeve about current events here, but let's see:

1) My nephew is inches away from being kicked out of the home that wtfpotatoes got kicked out of, and I'm not going to take him in, even if that means he has to go live in Mexico with his dad.

2) I am considering therapy for what may be depression, but it also may just be a generic case of stuckness that will go away soon. I won't decide until it's been more than a week that I've been feeling like this.

3) wtfpotatoes loses her health benefits from my work in January when she turns eighteen. No matter what I need to do to keep her covered until she can get insurance through her college or whatever, I'm going to do that, even if it means taking a second job or selling everything I own.


# parents

My father rarely calls me unless it's business-related, and when it's not business-related, I feel awkward and like I don't know what to say to him, or what I can do to have a real relationship with him.

# who are some of your closest friends?

The older I get, the more I think I'm not genuinely close to anyone.

Comments

[redbird]

I had missed that about your nephew, actually. Hang in there.