The good and the bad

[serene]

The past few days have been both rough and loving, both stressful and reassuring.

The good: My family loves me; I have a roof over my head and food to eat; I have apparently learned to bake bread without turning out inedible bricks; I am receiving some income from UI and contract work; I have some more contract work and some more stuff at Cal on the near horizon.

The bad: Night before last, had a difficult bout with my heart thing(*) that sent me into a bit of a tailspin emotionally. Yesterday, it took me most of the day to get out of a serious emotional slump, and I am only just feeling like me again. I gave myself the rest of today and tomorrow off from the job-and-client-hunting thing, because I just need it. Back to the grind on Friday.

Back to the good again: I spent the day feeling really down, but really loved. My partners are really good about letting me be me, in whatever form that takes. I do my best not to spill my moods on them, and they are champs about making me feel as good as possible when I'm down. Ditto my mom.


(*) My heart does this skipped-beat thing that is sometimes a vague annoyance, and sometimes really kind of scary. The other night, it was so bad that my vision blurred. I have had this checked out by doctors, and done the EKG thing and all, and they are unconcerned about it, but I hate it, and it makes me feel mortal and fragile and like I'm not taking good enough care of my body.

Comments

[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Yeah. *hug*

[krasota.livejournal.com]

Gah, heart woes are not fun. My anemia causes palpitations. Even though I know the reason for the sudden vibrating quiver in my chest, it always freaks me out and leaves me on edge for a day or two.

I hope you feel better soon.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

It always takes someone mentioning the anemia for me to draw the connection. I haven't been taking my iron pills. *headdesk*

[firecat]

If I thought it would help, I would send you my elisem campo de cielo meteorite piece to eat. But taking the iron pills might work better.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

That's a very generous offer, nonetheless. :-)

[krasota.livejournal.com]

Take 'em! If that *is* the cause, it's easily remedied. :)

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

oh, bleh. that's not so good. dear pesky heart: pls behave. kthxbye.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

You're my cute darling betsygirl. Thank you! My heart feels better already.

And now James is singing "Your Pesky Heart..."

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

Yay for taking breaks when you need them. I'm glad you feel like you again.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

We've been talking about you a lot the past few days. (All good, don't worry.) :-)

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

Huggity hug hug hugs!!!

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I like the huggity ones the best. Thanks!

*hugs*

[tracytreefrog.livejournal.com]

My heart does a fluttery thing once in a while very disconcerting. Hope you are feeling much better!

Re: *hugs*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

Thank you!