In a rambly mood

[serene]

This morning was so busy that I feel all flushed with activity. It flew by, and I'm happiest when I'm busy, so I feel really good. (Yes, I know it's still morning, but my work day is more than half over, so let me bask. :-)

someotherguy and his wife have kindly invited me to dinner at their house tomorrow. I'm going to take something veg, and they'll make something, as well. No idea what I'll take, but I'll figure something out. I'm happy about the prospect of spending more time with them; they are really a delight.

Guy called me at work yesterday after everyone else had left. At a few points in the conversation, if anyone had been listening/watching, I would have been so fired. ;-)

Still having really conflicted feelings about work, among other things. I don't really belong here as a cog in the military/industrial machine, but I love my job and it's hard to find a new one these days, so while I'm looking, I'm not all that eager to head out into a new situation when I like this one as much as I do. I loathe my hypocrisy, but I'm just not willing to be unemployed right now. When did I become a coward? I used to be willing to be poor for my ideals, and I think I've become more lazy and complacent than I'd like to admit. Cute-poet-chick thinks it's her fault, but I know better than to blame my shortcomings on other people.

(Related to this in my mind, whether or not it makes sense, is the fact that I've been craving and sometimes consuming meat on and off for the last couple of months, and that's pretty much unprecedented for me. Wonder if I've got some sort of midlife change-exploration thing going on or something.)

Anyway, navel-gazing aside, I'm eating peaches and berries, and feeling fine, fine, fine. :-)

Comments

[wandra.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling so fine!

Vron
back after a computerless month & happy to see a happy post from you :-)

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

A month without a computer? I would go insane!

(Not really, but that's my first gut reaction.)

[someotherguy.livejournal.com]

I'm glad your day is going well. I hope you get out of there on time tonight.

I kind of understand your mixed feeling about your job (I used to work for the criminal justice system.) but big chunks of floating steel don't kill brown people, rich old white male policy decisions kill brown people. Your job would still be there getting done by someone else even if you quit. Only real social change will change that, and I think you're doing your part there.

As far as meat goes, that might have something to do with the diet and exercise changes you've made for cute-poet-chick. You may just not be getting quite as much protein as your body wants.

We're looking forward to seeing you tomorrow too.

( BTW, I think maybe wife needs a better name then someotherguy's wife. I'll think on that. )

*hugs*

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I rarely work overtime (only when I request it). I think I'll stay just one hour tonight. The paper will overwhelm me otherwise.

As for the job, those thoughts (rationalizations) have occurred to me, but I still need to move my ass and get back to doing something that matters to me. You know how it is -- life is good, and my first impulse is to make it better. :-) But thanks so much for the support.

You might have a point on the meat; who knows. And yes, your wife needs a new name, but I thought it would be presumptuous to point that out. :-)

someotherguy's wife's name

[sogwife.livejournal.com]

Hey, I like it, myself. I think it's cute. In fact, that I chose to use it for my journal name. So, you're stuck with it, neener neener! ; )

Re: someotherguy's wife's name

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

But see, it's all about consent. If you *choose* it, I love it. I just didn't wanna be calling you something you might not like. :-)

*bounce*!! :-)