In a rambly mood

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This morning was so busy that I feel all flushed with activity. It flew by, and I'm happiest when I'm busy, so I feel really good. (Yes, I know it's still morning, but my work day is more than half over, so let me bask. :-)

someotherguy and his wife have kindly invited me to dinner at their house tomorrow. I'm going to take something veg, and they'll make something, as well. No idea what I'll take, but I'll figure something out. I'm happy about the prospect of spending more time with them; they are really a delight.

Guy called me at work yesterday after everyone else had left. At a few points in the conversation, if anyone had been listening/watching, I would have been so fired. ;-)

Still having really conflicted feelings about work, among other things. I don't really belong here as a cog in the military/industrial machine, but I love my job and it's hard to find a new one these days, so while I'm looking, I'm not all that eager to head out into a new situation when I like this one as much as I do. I loathe my hypocrisy, but I'm just not willing to be unemployed right now. When did I become a coward? I used to be willing to be poor for my ideals, and I think I've become more lazy and complacent than I'd like to admit. Cute-poet-chick thinks it's her fault, but I know better than to blame my shortcomings on other people.

(Related to this in my mind, whether or not it makes sense, is the fact that I've been craving and sometimes consuming meat on and off for the last couple of months, and that's pretty much unprecedented for me. Wonder if I've got some sort of midlife change-exploration thing going on or something.)

Anyway, navel-gazing aside, I'm eating peaches and berries, and feeling fine, fine, fine. :-)

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A month without a computer? I would go insane!

(Not really, but that's my first gut reaction.)