middle of the night is the morning after all

my thoughts are mellow and middle-of-the-nighty
it's 3am
my connections are gone -- my internet, my lover, my edit button
you will not read this until the morning, or until
connection is restored
and by then I may regain my edit button
and who will be the wiser?

I don't do bachelorhood like a bachelor
I don't eat out of cans or put my feet on the furniture
or fart really loudly
or surf the web for porn

Instead, I bake bread and wash dishes
and listen to Nanci Griffith
and watch The L-Word (*)
and work
and do laundry
and stay up late
being a husbandless wife
and I see the lingerie with a new eye
and I touch myself halfheartedly
because I've forgotten how to be when I'm alone

Surprisingly, I like it
I didn't think I would




(* So far, I've watched the first two episodes of season 3, and I am irritated. I may end up saying why in comments, so don't read them if you are spoiler-averse.)

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Any artisty types (or just plain chatty types) who want to give my niece art suggestions and/or talk to her about her painting hobby, here's where you do the clicky-clicky. Thanks!

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Seen in kightp, nitoda, and elsewhere, this is the love-of-place thing that's going around, and I like it a lot, especially the second sentence.

( List three things that you love about the area you live in. Do not contrast with the things you hate. )

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Someone who is on the group with the anti-fat-surgery discussion of the other day gives his take on it.

I gotta admit that it makes the world a little better for me every time I find someone who really examines the prejudices and cultural baggage we're all inundated with. I honestly don't need to them to come to my conclusions, though that's extra-nice. But if they can keep their knees from jerking for a while, my heart just swells with admiration.

pantryslut is likely to understand this one

Me, to my partners: "Y'know, when I expressed the desire to get paid to look at porn, I should've been more specific."