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[serene]

Didn't realize until this moment that the hardest thing about today (well, yesterday) wasn't finding out my tumor is very large and needs to have an ultrasound tomorrow. It wasn't losing a day of work to distraction and grumpiness, and feeling all needy all over my partners and golden_c_turtle.

It was telling my mom about the thyroid thing.

Mom lost her favorite child (her niece, but mom helped raise her, and she (my cousin) is universally agreed upon among the 20 cousins to be the best of us all) to breast cancer. Patty was an angel, and was easily the best person I ever knew, and she was my age when she died. My mother still hasn't gotten over that, 13 years later. If I have cancer (and I'm pretty sure I don't), it will send my mother over the deep end. That's why I've had trouble focusing today. Maybe I should go read a trashy novel and get some sleep.

Comments

[wordweaverlynn.livejournal.com]

My thoughts are with you,

[redandfiery.livejournal.com]

:::cuddles serene and rocks her to sleep:::

[cassidyrose.livejournal.com]

Yikes.

Sending every good health vibe I can muster your way.

[hmms-sio.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[redbird]

I hope it's all medically trivial, and that it's resolved quickly and without family panic.

The c word is a scary thing in my family

[tracytreefrog.livejournal.com]

Hoping everything goes well with the ultrasound and they can tell you all will be o.k. soon.Hugs!

[windsea.livejournal.com]

Thoughts and vibes on their way ...

[karenthecroccy.livejournal.com]

I'll be thinking of you.

[berkeleyfarm.livejournal.com]

YIKES!

sending love your way.

[(Anonymous)]

News like that seems a fine reason to feel needy. It's a scary thing. I'm sorry this is happening to you.

[sagittaria.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Hope you got good sleep.

[snippy]

::hugs:: I wish care for you.

[zpdiduda.livejournal.com]

My thoughts and best wishes are with you, sweetie.

[ptigris.livejournal.com]

*opens her arms towards the Southeast*

Can you feel it?

[waywardcats.livejournal.com]

Good thoughts to you and your mother.

Hugs,

-Kerry-

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

When I read this, I wondered, "What did I miss???"

*hughughug*

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

*big hugs*

I really hope everything connected with this goes smoothly and with the least possible stress to either your Mom or you.

[submarine-bells.livejournal.com]

Tumour? Eeep!

Good luck in getting it dealt with as painlessly and smoothly as possible.

[hnybny.livejournal.com]

Sending {{{{VIBES}}}}

[bastette-joyce.livejournal.com]

I've already read your later post where you explain that it's a benign tumor (but which might well be causing some problems, even if not the weird symptoms you've had recently). In any case, I'm sorry you've been under stress, and I'm sorry that your mom is feeling freaked out and scared about losing you. And I'm REALLY glad that you can reassure her you don't have cancer! Reading a trashy novel sounds like an excellent stress-reduction plan, btw!

I know it's traumatic to lose someone, and it's easy to idealize someone once they're gone. But I don't buy the idea that Patty was better than you or any of your cousins. Maybe she was nicer, sweeter, smarter, more talented, more of a "good daughter" or a "good cousin", or whatever. But - in my worldview anyway - that doesn't make a person more worthy. You are wonderful, too! You are just as good as anyone else. And your life is worth every bit as much. Maybe she was your mom's favorite (and if that hurts you, you have my hugs and sympathies - it sounds like that would be hard), but that still doesn't make her "the best of you all".

Sorry, I don't mean to disrespect Patty's memory in any way - it sounds like she was a wonderful person. But I guess this is a bit of a hot button of mine. I don't think we should ever accept the idea that anyone is better than anyone else. Just MHO.

(((Hugs)))

[minimo.livejournal.com]

Good luck with however they decide to treat you. xo!