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Didn't realize until this moment that the hardest thing about today (well, yesterday) wasn't finding out my tumor is very large and needs to have an ultrasound tomorrow. It wasn't losing a day of work to distraction and grumpiness, and feeling all needy all over my partners and golden_c_turtle.

It was telling my mom about the thyroid thing.

Mom lost her favorite child (her niece, but mom helped raise her, and she (my cousin) is universally agreed upon among the 20 cousins to be the best of us all) to breast cancer. Patty was an angel, and was easily the best person I ever knew, and she was my age when she died. My mother still hasn't gotten over that, 13 years later. If I have cancer (and I'm pretty sure I don't), it will send my mother over the deep end. That's why I've had trouble focusing today. Maybe I should go read a trashy novel and get some sleep.

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Llego con tres heridas: La del amor; la de la muerte; la de la vida.
Con tres heridas viene: La de la vida; la del amor; la de la muerte.
Con tres heridas yo: La de la vida; la de la muerta; la del amor.


[For many years, I mistranslated this in my head. I thought "heridas" meant "heritages", which would be "herencias" or some such. So what it means is this, but where you read "wounds", substitute "heritages", and I think it's beautiful either way.]


I come with three wounds: The one of[from] love, the one of death, the one of life.
With three wounds he[she/it] comes: The one of life, the one of love, the one of death.
I, with three wounds: The one of life, the one of death, the one of love.

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Thanks, everyone. Feeling much less maudlin today. ;-)

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Seems many of my friends are getting the news of my thyroid tumor for the first time. Sorry to be cryptic.

The tumor was discovered during a routine physical a couplethree years ago. I got a fine-needle biopsy and the results came back benign, so I have every reason to believe it's still benign. My thyroid levels are normal, and it's unlikely the tumor is causing any of the weird symptoms I've been experiencing lately.

Again, sorry for my lack of clarity.